She's back

The mom and the kids showed up at the adoption agency again. She is ready to move forward with her adoption plan. Again.

We used to get excited when the adoption agency would call with this news, but now we are a bit jaded because of her disappearing acts. If only we could look around the corner!

But since we are blinded to tomorrow, we take things one step at a time. In faith, we move forward. Not knowing where we are going - but knowing Who we are following.

The Holder of tomorrow is also the Holder of our hearts, and so we can take that step, even if we have no clue where the path will lead us. God knows what tomorrow will bring - and that's what matters most. We trust Him. We know He doesn't make mistakes. Even when things look all messed up, we know He is still working. We don't know what He is working on, but trust that He is using this situation for good, no matter how it ends up.

And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him - Romans 8:28

And so another visit has been set up. For this weekend. An extended weekend, actually. We should have the kids from Friday through Tuesday. During this time, we'll love on the kids and share our family life with them.

These types of visits are encouraged by the State with older child foster/adoptions. I suppose it gives us all a taste of what could be. The mom can see if she can really do this - and so can we. Ideally, these visits would have happened all along, but with her disappearing acts that has been impossible to do.

Nothing is set in stone yet. She still needs to decide. So do we. We all want what's best for the kids - for all 4 kids. We are weighing very heavily how bringing two more kids into our family will affect Luke and Emma. She is weighing very heavily what is best for her and the kids. The social workers have their input as well. No one is being forced to do anything that isn't 100% agreed upon by all parties.

We will all take as long as we need to make this life-changing decision. No matter what tomorrow holds, there are a lot of things to consider for everyone. We have had lots of thoughts, prayers, conversations and tears through all this.

And so we hold onto our faith, thankful this decision isn't just up to us humans! God's going to get us all in the "right place" for the best decision to be made. For all of us.

And that is the one thing I am 100% sure of.